So to begin, I have a lot to do with my life and i fully intend to do so.
Step one.
The main reason i created this blog is because i knew that i wanted to record my progress with contact juggling. I will only ask myself to write in the journal once a week along with an uploaded video of me practicing contact juggling. Since it hasn't been my first week yet i thought this was an absolutely awesome idea. Alex btw, he is great at it already for us just having started Saturday the 4th this month at the rennasance faire in norman, oklahoma.
Step two.
Lose weight. I want to be memorable for my 'me'-ness, not for my size. I currently weigh 206.0 lbs. I should ideally be around the 130 range. But for me, i would be thrilled at 160 ish. I have made a mistake of not working out for over a year since having moved in with my soul mate. But unhealthy eating and zero activity except for around the house kills me. I will push myself to work out at bare minimum working out twice a week. I will reduce my pop and other sugary goodness intake. One would always hope i stop smoking tobacco, and stop biting my nails as well.
Step three.
Get a job. Getting a job or atleast applying to jobs should be a priority to me. I have an annoying cavity, 4 wisdom teeth aching to be pulled, a massively chipped tooth, and my front teeth may be developing cavities due to my awful oral hygene, smoking, eating and wisdom teeth. All of that and other desires of life and joys are with in my reach if i start behaving as such and get off my butt.
Step four.
Reuniting with some spirituality i feel i am lacking in, would be very nice. Recently i have already been making steps that direction and will continue to do so with fasting on liquids only, and days of no speaking/communication. I can better build this with several things though too. Working on assembling an arts and crafts for pagan things would be very nice. I can also spend more time in nature.
Step five.
Art and play? The things i look most forward to about my days, painting, reading, online gaming, console gaming, movies, count, ferrets, alex, tarot, crafts, meditation, music, friends, contact juggling. What is keeping me from spending more time doing things i enjoy except myseld is what i am asking. I get distracted, angry, negative, sleep too much, cleaning, and other things that i need to stop and recognize them before they overwhelm me again. To stop that i need to reassure myself that cleaning up doesn't take long and it is okay if alex doesn't get something done on time. I will do my best to not get angry even if i feel he is being lazy. I will express in a calm positive manner that somethign needs done until it is done. I will play with alex, in naughty ways and our every day annoying each other ways. When he annoys me, i will stop what i am doing if it is resonable and just enjoy the attention. Instead of whining also about our lack of new grocies (i suck and grocery shoping only because of distractions and not planning), I will write down what i would like to have and have broth or ramen instead, I will always eat fresh fruit or vegetables or left overs before all else, then milk.
Okay so since i have that layed out i will get more information up when i can about all the steps and how i am progressing, of course updated atleast weekly, with video of cj as well. I think i may try and start also using sparkpeople again. It is a GREAT site for weightloss.
I wanted to share alex and mine's most recent adventure, err rather skimmed btw of this year, 2009 up til now.
Alex and I started playing the casinos, Alot. We did fairly good.
A few months ago we found out when the norman renn faire was coming.
Sometime, I fell in love with contact juggling and became eager to learn - but no balls.
A month ago or so, I won 1000$. We had already planned on the faire trip but with our jobless-ness i didn't figure much would be spent. Well this helped alot.
2 Weeks ago, my best girlfriend - Destiny lost her father. =(....
A week ago, I decided i wanted to leave to oklahoma early. So we did.
Thursday?, I met one of destiny's friends - Snow. I also gave most of destiny's family each their own picture.
Saturday - jasmine and colin, braedon and caleb, along with destiny, alex and me explored the faire. The kids entering a tournament, me sunburning. But also getting my first 70mm clear contact juggling ball. <3! I've been playing with it ever since. I have this beautiful image in my head i'll explain a later time.
Monday - Alex and i left for home on a trip that normally takes 8 hours to complete. Instead - We listened to those billboard advertisements and exited now at a casino. We went to 4 or 5 casinos i think? I won about 800$ in a slot machine but uhhhh lucky me i blew it all ^^. Lesson learned of listening to myself - no matter what. Well needless to say we didn't make it in 8 hours.
About 12 hours ago we got home. An approximately 48 hour trip home.
We passed "Rafa's Mexican food" my thinking its just the mexican raffy.
The most hilarious looking police station and town library.
Sorry to say i did not get ANY pictures i think of our visit! I suck.
I will try and see if i magically did but i don't recall as yes i have been asleep, high and exhausted going on being 27 hours awake currently.
We went through reading kansas. Crazy name ^^.
Ate at a resturant named 'Froggy's' some where in kansas going north past topeka. (They illegally use The Cheesecake Factory logo.)
I got a breath-taking view of the stars, beautiful landscapes as we drove a completely random fucking way home.
Well this is pretty much my day, my eyes i think are actually starting to hurt now since i need sleep. But meh.
HAVE A GREAT DAY.
SMILE.
LOOK UP TO THE SKY, NOT AT THE GROUND.
LOVE AND HUGS TO ALL (yes knowing you or not)
~Z Kitty
oh memo to self cover random dropped topics from this post in next along with complete info of this new system. Along with thatballguy, senseistrange, a mentor, tutorials of cj, and steal this book wiki site. ^.~
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